“I’ve been watching my life…it’s right there. I keep scratching at it, trying to get in to it. But I can’t.”
I watched this scene in Mad Men, years ago.
As I watched, I welled up. Tears.
Draper’s words hit an emotional core. As a result, I’ve used this scene several times to express my feelings and experiences. I felt like I was just watching my life. I wasn’t actually in it. It was impossible for me to get in to.
I don’t mean that mindfulness … sucks. It’s just that…what you learn about yourself can be overwhelming.
It…sucks.
I started meditating twenty months ago. At the same time, I began studying mindfulness. Consequently, I’ve learned a lot. As a result of this new self-awareness, I’ve had some tough realizations about myself. The good news is that I can make the necessary changes. Although it may be difficult and challenging, I believe I have the willpower to make the changes.
Aristotle famously wrote, “knowing yourself is the beginning of all knowledge.” Buddhism teaches the idea that the “self” is an illusion, and enlightenment lies beyond the gateway of this understanding. The Bureau of Labor Statistics predicts growth for marriage and family counselors – much faster than average11. Online counseling sites like Better Help and Talk Space are popping up, providing more access. The Self-Help Industry is on a trajectory to become a 13 billion dollar industry by 202224. Our cell phone addictions increase our anxiety, disturb our sleep, increase social comparison (IE social media), and make it difficult to disconnect17. Millennials have experienced a 47% increase in major depression diagnoses since 2013, illustrated by a rise in deaths related to alcohol, drugs, or suicide16.