When I was very young, after losing my first tooth, I first experienced bittersweet. I gently wrapped the tooth in a tissue and placed it beneath my pillow. I awaited the tooth fairy to come and claim my small tooth in exchange for a mere quarter.
I couldn’t sleep.
There was excitement, yes. However, there was something else. I suddenly had the realization that the tooth that had served me well to this young juncture in my life would soon be gone, out of my reach forever. It was…bittersweet. In a moment of intense emotion, I pulled the wrapped tooth from my pillow and unwrapped it before the dim light of my nightlight, and said goodbye one last time.
The Sun Salutation (Sanskrit: Surya Namaskara) is a ritualistic, meditative set of movements often associated with the Hatha Vinyasa style of yoga. The series of roughly nine to twelve asanas or poses is named after the Hindu sun god, Surya.
What a remarkable year already, even a quarter way in. Growth continues to occur exponentially. I’ve joined some great communities supporting my journey. When I look back at the December entry, it feels like I don’t recognize the person that wrote it! Or, that I have grown beyond those ideas… closer to the most authentic version of myself.
I am more secure with what I would have previously considered my shortcomings. Some things that I’ve experienced recently would have been catastrophic to an older version of myself. But with a greater degree of self-compassion and acceptance, they are merely things to work on and through.
Let’s visit the tenets of My 40’s Manifesto…
How would you describe your mindset right now?
Mindset: The New Psychology of Success, a 2006 book written by Carol Dweck describes the modern idea of mindset. The concept is divided between a growth mindset and a fixed mindset. In Dweck’s own words those with a growth mindset are “individuals who believe their talents can be developed (through hard work, good strategies, and input from others)”.1 On the other hand, those with a fixed mindset tend to believe things are the way they are and there isn’t much to be done to make a change.
I am two months into a 200-hour yoga certification. I made this commitment to deepen my understanding of the flow-inducing practice as it has become dear to me. Also, I have a desire to become a better teacher. Yet, I am finding much more than that. I have found a world that I have been searching for while curious and experimenting only at the surface.